Sunday, February 8, 2015

Balancing Motherhood and Creative Entrepreneurship: The Camera Does Not Lie

As I was looking through some old pictures of my T-shirt designs, I came across these which showed the kids in the background, running around.

Mientras miraba algunas fotos viejas de mis diseños de camiseta, me encontré con estas que muestran a los niños en el fondo, corriendo. 



I remember when I started my business, Nelesc Designs, I had an almost 6 year old and a 14 month old. Because natural light is always best, I aimed to take pictures of my designs outdoors. However, in my neck of the woods,  the sun cooperated best around 3:30 PM when my oldest arrived from school. I either had to wait for a day when my husband would be home at that time or just wing it and try to take pictures while my oldest ran around the yard, hoping the camera would not catch him. Ah! but the camera doesn't lie and it catches what is there. This is me balancing motherhood and creative entrepreneurship. 


Recuerdo que cuando empecé mi negocio , Nelesc Designs,  tenía un niño de casi seis años y otro de 14 meses de edad. Debido a que la luz natural siempre es mejor, mi objetivo era tomar fotos para mi sitio web, al aire libre. Sin embargo , en mi vecindario, el sol solamente cooperaba alrededor de las 3:30 de la tarde, precisamente cuando mi hijo mayor llegaba de la escuela. Tenía dos opciones; esperar tomar fotos cuando mi esposo estuviera disponoble para estar con los niños, o simplemente improvisar y tomarlas mientras mis hijos corrían por el patio, deseando que la cámara no los captara. ¡Ah ! pero la cámara no miente y capta lo que hay. Aquí me tiene, equilibrando la maternidad y el emprendimiento creativo.




Early on in the business, I used to leave this part out, the part about my being a mother, especially the fact that I was a mother of special needs children. I wasn't ashamed, I just needed the separation. Nowadays, as I look at these pictures, they are so telling of my progress as a "mompreneur" and the progress my kids have made over the years, particularly, my oldest (I'll call him M). For instance, here, he's giving great eye contact! This was difficult for M in his early years.   


Al principio del negocio, solía dejar esta parte fuera, la parte de ser madre, sobre todo el hecho de que yo era una madre de niños con necesidades especiales . Yo no estaba avergonzada, simplemente necesitaba la separación . Hoy en día, estas fotos, cuentan tanto de mi progreso como  emprendedora al igual del progreso que han hecho mis hijos, especialmente mi hijo mayor ( lo llamaré M ). Por ejemplo, aquí, él está mirando con intento a mis ojos! Esto fue difícil para M cuando era mas pequeño.



As M grew older, he became interested in photography and would take the pictures of my creations while Dan ran around. I liked that he was involved in the business somehow  and this especially came in handy during school breaks when I had no one to watch them. 

It also helped me gage how good Dan followed directions while outdoors in a safe, gated environment. He did okay but I still had to make sure he would not eat dirt or climb over the fence! But, even in the craziness, it felt good to let my kids in on this aspect of my life, this journey of creative entrepreneurship that was initially all mine. It felt more 
authentic.


A medida que crecia M, empezó a interesarse por la fotografía y, eventualmente, tomaría las fotos de mis creaciones, mientras que Dan corrió alrededor. Me gustó que se vio envuelto en el negocio de alguna manera y esto especialmente fue muy útil durante las vacaciones escolares, cuando no tenía a nadie que me velara los hijos.

También me ayudó evaluar si Dan, en realidad, podria seguir instruciones mientras estaba afuera. El patio era un sitio encerrado y seguro. Lo hizo bien, pero todavía tenía que asegurarme de que no iba a comer tierra o pasar por encima de la cerca! Pero, entremedio de toda esta locura, me sentí bien dejando entrar a mis hijos en este aspecto de mi vida, esta trayectoria del empresarial creativo que inicialmente fue todo mío . Me sentía más auténtica.






My oldest is no longer running around in the background and now intentionally photobombs my shots. I don't get angry though, I actually celebrate it. Like me, he tends to be  uncomfortable in the spotlight. However, lately, he's been feeling his power, finding his voice, getting more assertive, and figuring it all out. I also am finding my voice and am becoming more comfortable with my roles in life; artesana,  special needs mom, entrepreneur, Latina, Christian, etc. I enjoy these worlds intertwining and sometimes colliding. This is us, and the camera does not lie.   


Mi hijo mayor ya no está corriendo en segundo plano y  ahora intencionadamente se mete en mis fotos!  Yo no me enojo, al contrario, lo celebro . Como yo, a él no le gusta ser el centro de atención. Sin embargo, últimamente, esta conociendo su poder, encontrando su voz, es cada vez más asertivo, y esta tratando de entenderlo todo . Yo también he encontrado mi voz y estoy más cómoda con los papeles que desempeño en la vida; artesana, madre de niños con autismo, emprendedora, latina, cristiana, etc. Disfruto de estos mundos que se entrelazan y en ocasiones chocan. Aquí nos tienen, y la cámara no miente.

10 comments:

  1. Thank you Terina! I appreciate your support!

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  2. I love how honest you are about needing to keep the two identities seperate initially. I'm sure a lot of people struggle with that.
    It was a good read!!

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    1. Thank you Chantel! Yes, i needed a break from autism world, remember I have two on the spectrum! My creative endeavors provided this for me. But now, I am embracing the two worlds coming together. It's who I am. Thanks again for commenting!

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  3. Loved all the candid moments captured on film! Thank you for sharing your story with us and for sharing all aspects of your self!!

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    1. You are welcome Lisa!!! My boys make me a better person, artist, friend mom, etc. I need to celebrate that! Thank you for taking the time to comment, so appreciate it!

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  4. Lovely post - so nice to read the story of your photos, which always look great by the way!!

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    1. Thank you Jill! So wonderful of you to stop by, I continue to appreciate the work you do as well!

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  5. Awwwh! Love your shirts, and you look adorable in them ... the camera loves you, for sure. My camera regularly lies like a dog on the rug, I swear it does.

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    1. I just saw this Jan, you are hysterical!!! and you look fantastic in your photos! Thank yu so much for your support, I so appreciate it :)

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